If it means baby stuff that we need to have, then yes. We have been busy getting them that almost every website, video, class and everyone says we need - two cribs, two car seats, a double stroller, two swings, two bouncer seats, bottles, bibs, books, a musical mobile, toys, towels and blankets, lots of colorful clothes spread over 12 months, and the list goes on. In fact, our babies have gotten so many clothes. We probably will need to change their clothes fast in the first few weeks so they get some time in all of them. Also, boxes of baby wipes and diapers are starting piling up. Not only do we have the stuff but also a pediatrician eager to see them and four classes - 2 twins preps, infant care and CPR under our belt. Finally, the house is tidy for them to grow. Our bags are packed. As soon as we get the call that S is in labor, we are ready to be on our way in no time.
Are we ready? I guess we are.
We are only days away from the end of this surrogacy journey which we started a few years back. We are also days away from two of us to a family of four after more than 20 years of being childless. It makes me teary just to think about it. This is it, the moment that we have been longing and waiting for which seems like a lifetime. So are we ready? Hmm..maybe not.
In a split second, I thought we are so not ready to march toward the finish line. Although the journey involves constant worries, it has been mesmerizing and unforgettable. We cheer each milestone and continue to be amazed by S and her growing belly. We have truly enjoyed the experiences and all of these are soon to become lifelong memories. It is scary to think that our life is going to change forever in the second babies are born and turn into feeding, diaper change, and all the routines that come with parenthood.
So what was I thinking? We have been waiting to meet our girls and hold them in our arms for a long time. Then I realize...how could we really prepare and be ready for the moment like these?
The moment when our girls make their grand entry into this world?
...when we hold them in our arms?
...when our eyes meet for the first time?
and when they are home and eventually one day calling us "daddy" and "papa"?
As we are only days from becoming daddy and papa, our emotions are all over the place and anticipation is too high to bear. For weeks, I have avoided watching any birth video because I cry for each one of them. There is no way we could be ready and prepare ourselves for all these moments to come. Perhaps being unprepared is the most thrilling part as this journey culminates to its finale. Although it has been overwhelming to go through surrogacy and to get things in order, we are now looking forward to being unprepared for the day our girls are born. In fact, it is going to be the proudest underprepared moment of our life.
Are we ready? I think we are. When our babies are ready, they will let us know.
Now get your tissues ready for this video.
10 things all dads-to-be must know
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